“What was your dream of you…What was the dream you had of yourself from the very beginning? Before life interrupted, before anyone told you who you were allowed to be?” ~ Jo Saxton, The Dream of You
Are we allowed to dream? Is it bad? Doesn’t dreaming mean that I am delusional, living in a fantasy land, unwilling to accept the reality and truth of my life? You know…I don’t think anyone has tried to sell me a Christianity that says dreaming is not allowed but I have somehow bought it…hook, line, and sinker. I feel guilty for dreaming. It isn’t Kingdom-minded. It makes me a selfish person, a failure as a Jesus follower. I want to reimagine who I can become…who God has designed me to be. But then I remember, “Thou shall not dream.” Aren’t I supposed to deny myself…die to self…pick up my cross…???
Perhaps we have died to the wrong things.
Somehow we have been deceived by the world that we must accept the identity it has assigned to us. There is no other way. So we choose to die, except we die to the wrong things. We die to the passion stirring in our hearts. We ignore the gifts and talents that we have been given. We quiet the whisper that says, God can do more than I can ask or imagine. We close our eyes to the vision of what could be. As we die to what gives us life we forget who we are…whose we are…and we watch the ashes of our true-self slip through our fingers.
As the ashes settle, so do we…we settle to just make it through…and we settle into who and what others say we should be.
I don’t know about you but I’m tired of settling. I want to reimagine who I can become…who God has designed me to be. I want to believe, live and lead radically different but I can’t get away from the fact that living into the dream God has for me means that I need to make a change. And change is hard.
I’ve been sitting with the word renovate this past week and I love the idea of God doing something new in my life and leadership. But there is one thing that I just can’t escape. If you’ve ever been through a renovation project you know that there is a phase that needs to happen first…demolition. Things get torn down, swept up, and cleaned out before the renovation can begin. The same is true for us. In order for us to be restored and re-awakened to the dream God has had for us from the very beginning…there needs to be a deconstruction of the old, in order for things to be reshaped and rebuilt into the new.
This is how the dream of you is no longer a dream…but reality.
So…dream. Imagine who God made you to be and take the road He has laid out for you…even if it’s hard.
If you want to start living more into who God has designed you to be I would recommend The Dream of You: A 5-Day Reading Plan to Live the Life You Were Made For offered by YouVersion. You can begin the plan by clicking the link below.
Jo Saxton’s new book The Dream of You is also a great tool in the renovation process. You can find it on Amazon or look for it elsewhere on-line or at your favorite book store!