It is hard for me to trust God. I have no trouble believing that God takes care of human history, that He is above all and through all, that He can move mountains and part seas, and that He raised Jesus from the dead. I believe that God’s grace and love is transforming and changing lives all over the world, bringing them from the Kingdom of darkness into the Kingdom of light. But when it comes to the intricate details of my day to day life…well…that tends to be a different story.
Maybe you find yourself in a similar place. Perhaps you find it difficult to rely on God to be intimately involved and working in your life. Or maybe you’ve seen God’s personal goodness and provision in your own journey but you struggle to see how God cares for others.
Trusting God can be hard.
In January I asked God for a word for the year. I’ve never really done that before, but I had seen and heard many talk about their experience with the practice so I thought, why not! And, as you may be able to guess, my word for 2018 is TRUST. I wish I could say God dropped it right in my mind and spirit, as He often does when He speaks to me, but this time it was different. Rather than an “aha” moment, it was a slower, gradual reveal. The idea of trust kept showing up in various places in my life, whether it was in the course of reading a book, listening to a message or talking with friends.
I will admit, at the risk of getting it wrong…just in case there was another word…I waited. Now, let’s just pause there for a second. I was worried about getting it wrong…seriously??!!! How wrong can it be to focus on what it means to trust God for a year? Ridiculous! That’s got the enemy’s fingerprints all over it!
So…trust it was!
According to the dictionary, trust means to place confidence in, gain confidence, rely on, depend on; reliance on the integrity, strength and ability of someone or something; to commit or place in one’s care; to rely on the truthfulness or accuracy of; believe in; lean on
I hesitated to ask God to teach me to trust in Him alone. I remember vividly as I began to pray, stopping and saying, “God, I’m not sure I want you to teach me what it means to trust you because that probably means dealing with some hard stuff…” and who wants to ask for that? But trust really can’t be trust if there are no challenges…if I’ve got it all figured out…if I’m the one who takes care of things.
It’s no surprise that there have been some significant things that have happened or been revealed that have required me to trust God! As I reflect mid-year, here are some lessons that I am learning about trust. I hope they are an encouragement to you in your journey of trusting Him.
*Trust is a choice that I must make thousands of times a day
*The more I choose to trust God, the easier it becomes…becomes my default mode
*Trust keeps me from worrying…and boy, do I tend to worry!
*In order for me to trust, I need to keep my focus on God. I realize that I focus on circumstances and outcomes!
*Trust allows me to be honest with God about what’s troubling me
*To trust that God is above and in all circumstances
*To trust in God’s timing, and that He has equipped me for the road ahead
*To trust that God is with me and for me
What resonates most with you? For me, it is the realization that trust is a choice that I must make thousands of times a day. It’s not just about saying, “I trust you, God.” I can say it over and over again but then I need to choose to do it. My actions should be evidence of my trust. My thoughts should reflect my trust. All day…every day.
I have so much more to learn and honestly, I’ll be a student of trust for a lifetime. But just in these few short months, God has been faithful to answer my prayer and teach me what it means to trust in Him.
It’s never too late to ask God for a word! There’s nothing tricky about it…just ask. Whether His response comes by dropping it clearly into your spirit and mind or in a slower drip of revelation, He will answer!
If there is something you’ve been learning I’d love to hear about it! You will be an encouragement to me!